Forever Burning Bright!

it's been awhile---

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 05:43:04 GMT

pretty much given up on finding lasting partnership.

Genius!

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 00:32:12 GMT

English Genius
You scored 92% Beginner, 100% Intermediate, 86% Advanced, and 93% Expert!

You did so extremely well, even I can't find a word to describe your excellence! You have the uncommon intelligence necessary to understand things that most people don't. You have an extensive vocabulary, and you're not afraid to use it properly! Way to go!

Thank you so much for taking my test. I hope you enjoyed it!

For the complete Answer Key, visit my blog: http://shortredhead78.blogspot.com/.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 0% on Beginner

You scored higher than 99% on Intermediate

You scored higher than 0% on Advanced

You scored higher than 99% on Expert

Link: The Commonly Confused Words Test written by shortredhead78 on OkCupid, home of the The Dating Persona Test

Having a rough time.

Wed, 03 May 2006 18:19:43 GMT

for the last month or so, P has been text messaging me 4-5 times a week. the thing about it is that he just sends a smiley face. when i ask what he means, he says that he's just saying hi. that's chickenshit to me. i know that the only time he comes around is when he is lonely or horny. i know that his last couple of attemps of forming relationships with other women has not been sucessful

a week ago he mentions that he's moving away but he's sniffing around for some nookie. asking me if i have any new toys. i oh so politely end the conversation, and send him on his way. . .fuck him.

i still go out and socialize with friends and have a lot of fun, however my attempts at forming a loving partnership with someone is a total diaster. spitually my life is vibrant, growing, and a source of joy.

Yuletime

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 22:07:58 GMT

trying real hard not to get the holiday blues. i know i have many things to be grateful for.

peace

Last Quiz :)

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 00:28:49 GMT

<td align="center">Fun is most important in your life.

Having a high focus on fun indicates that you value your own enjoyment over anything else. And there is nothing wrong with that. Your motto is we're here for a good time - not a long time.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

Kindness

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 00:21:09 GMT

<td align="center">Kindness

Kindness is most important in a boyfriend/girlfriend. You want someone who will go through everything with you - the best moments and the worst, and all of those other moments in between. You love to be able to say anything to your partner, and have them say anything to you. You are able to be extremely close with your partner for that reason.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

How "smart" am i?

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 01:15:46 GMT

All-Around Smart

You are all-around smart. Essentially, that means that you are a good combination of your own knowledge and experience, along with having learned through instruction - and you are equally as good with theoretical things as you are with real-world, applied things. You have a well-rounded brain.

40% applied intelligence
30% learned intelligence

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

My Life

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 22:12:45 GMT

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	5
Mind:	5.8
Body:	5.2
Spirit:	6.3
Friends/Family:	2.5
Love:	0
Finance:	6.6
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

Goals

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 21:44:08 GMT

I just recently started my second job. Right now i just want to concentrate on saving money. Over the last few months, i have really wanted to move to a smaller more cost effective apartment. I really don't need a second bathroom. . .since i live by myself.

Taking a Break

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 07:13:42 GMT

When i moved to the bay area i hoped i would find the bdsm "flavored relationship" of my dreams. Well after 4+ years that hasnt happened. I have 1-2 folks that i play with from time to time, however for the most part i'm gonna "take myself off the market"

Actually i feel calm about this decision.

Friday night thoughts

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 05:54:57 GMT

My experience of living in the bay area is that there is great fun to be had, however most folks are lazy and don't invest any time or energy into getting to know each other. Why should they?? there is no reason to. There's always a new playmate around the corner.

Talked to an old paramour today (he betrayed me), surprisingly enough i understood the reason for his betrayal, however it still pissed me off. But anyway, i am at the point where i am no longer angry about it, and consider it a lesson learned. He is basically a decent person, and i learned a lot from the time we were together. I will always have a soft spot in my heart for him. He says that he is sending me a present in the mail. I think i may know what it is. . .on a subconscious level it is a apology for his betrayal. . .not to mention an indirect form of submission.

P wanted to get together tonight (last minute of course) i think that type of behavior is rude. Why does he assume that good times are to be had only when he has an itch to scratch?? Not to mention whenever he comes over i have to host. I ever so politely declined his "generous" offer. :((

I have been semi-faithfully practicing my breathing, chanting, prayers to my patron goddess, and energy work and i find that amazing. They say that one must not get attached to the physical feelings involved while activating the kundalini, but i take these feelings as a way to become a more complete person. . . Fullfillment must come from within.

Sigh

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 05:56:05 GMT

I feel like my social life is at an impasse. I had an opportunity for a casual encounter with A on Sunday, my heart wasn't in it, so i cancelled. I never thought i would decline an opportunity to play. But unless the chemistry is right why bother? Nice enough fellow, however he requires a lot of time and energy and doesn't give back in return. On a more practical note, he lives at home with his aging father, so i have to host all the time. :( I totally understand about the need to help with aging parents, however his dad is still independent (still drives his car) so it's not like he needs care 24/7. Plus i get the feeling that A thinks my place doesn't measure up to his standards. Fuck that. All i know is that i work hard for a living and spend a hella lotta money on rent, so why can't he do the same? In fact i'm gonna take on a second job cuz the cost of living is soooo expensive here .

2 other guys i've met are just looking for some kinky sex whenever it's convenient for them. Fuck that too!

Another guy i've spent some time with, (P) is very good, and we have lots of fun, however we just met so who knows? He's close to 40 and still lives with his parents! AARRGH! But the energy is good between us so i don't mind playing host.

Slightly changing topic----but it seems that whenever i do everything i'm supposed to do(pay attention to proper diet, exercise, and daily mindful spiritual practice) i feel calm, centered and at ease.

Till next time-

Just your typical bay area kinkypagan/bbw/woc.

Sat, 28 May 2005 05:26:29 GMT

Well after checking out this site for more than a year i decided to take the plunge. I think the title describes me to a "t". I have no illusions about myself. . .i have many good points, and a few neuroses and challenging aspects to my character that i am trying to change. Sometimes i will surprise you with my insight and wisdom, and other times you'll think that i'm a taco short in my combo plate.

Essentially i'm just a kinky spiritually inclined woman trying to make her way in the big city.

Cheers!